New Year's Resolution

So...

Sometimes, my parents make me really angry.
Like, REALLY mad.
Blood boiling, fist making, jaw clenching mad.

And then I say stuff that I later regret.

Why can't I just keep my mouth shut!?
It's my own fault more than half the time.
I ignore doing various easy tasks that they've reminded me about like, 50 times. I know it's bound to make them mad, and bring their wrath down on myself.
If I would just do the little things that they ask...

But I don't.

Sometimes, they're irritable, and nitpick insignificant things.
I do that quite often too, and I realize how much people have to put up with from me sometimes.
If I could just stand there and take it like they all do for me; keep my head down and weather the storm...

But I can't.


Sometimes, I feel like defiance is an extra appendage.
It sticks out of the center of my torso; an inconvenience.
It's a limb I can't control, and one that takes control in a moment of weakness.

Honestly.
I realize that sometimes, I do things just because I know it'll make my mom mad.
Not all the time.
But often enough.

Which brings me to my New Year's Resolution:

Every time I get into a confrontation with my mom, dad, or anybody else for that matter, I will try to see their side, count to 5, and answer in a calm, respectful voice.

I feel like that's gonna be hard enough, so I'll leave that as my only one for now.

Wish me luck!
:)