blah... sunday

not much going on today...
i hate sundays. they're insanely depressing. but on the plus side: one week until spring break :]

i think i'll go recruit some friends to play tennis later today.

bye ;]

return to the world of blogging :)

wow. i haven't posted in a small forever.
but i think i'm reentering the world of blogging.

at the moment, i'm sitting in a 5-year-old's room, waiting for my parents to decide it's time to leave this party. i hate this. we have to go to parties with the same people every week. the only thing that changes is whose house it's held at. it's infuriating. god forbid we should have one saturday night to spend quietly and peacefully at home.

anyway. i got into a... squabble(?) with one of my best friend's yesterday over something so trivial it seems pointless in retrospect. i didn't realize exactly how important that friend was to me until the existence of our friendship was put in jeopardy. it left me with a queasy feeling in my stomach the whole day. we talked it out though, and we're good now, so i feel at ease ^_^

spirit day today... i planted a tree :) we had to dig an insanely deep hole. i stood in it and it swallowed up my legs until a couple of inches above the knee :o

mk, finally, i'm going home. so ecstatic!
27 dresses and a late night bowl of honey bunches of oats awaits my return to home :)

night <3


"The best antidote to fear is knowledge." - Ralph Waldo Emerson

eliminate

take away the colors
blur the shapes
silence the sounds
suppress all emotion

just eliminate the variables
constantly changeing
so distracting
infuriating
too much to focus on
too much to think about

i need solitude
emptiness
peace

please
i beg
just let me live in blankness for a while

Hilarious Story :D

I was perusing a friend of mine's blog today when I came across this story. I couldn't resist re-posting it:

An Interesting Story
My uncle told me an interesting story today about keeping a watchful eye out for opportunities. He told me the story in Arabic, so I will do my best to translate it as closely as possible. Excuse me if some of it doesn't sound right; things sound wierd when they're translated."

Once upon a time, there was a man whose life was filled with bad luck. [For storytelling purposes, let's call him Bob.] Bob used to fail at everything he tried. He was poor, homeless, and what not. His life was miserable and he was unhappy with it.

One day, he decided he wanted to meet his 'luck' and find out why his life was so miserable. So he asked around about where 'lucks' lived and set out on a journey to the land of the 'lucks.'

On his way, he encountered a lion who was sitting on the edge of the forest. The lion was clearly weak and powerless. He asked Bob where he was headed. Bob said, "I am on my way to the land of the lucks to meet my luck and speak to him about why my life is so miserable.""Will you do me a favor?" the lion asked. "I am a lion; I am supposed to be the king of the jungle. But look at me. I am weak and powerless and unable even to kill my prey. Will you please ask my luck why I am so and then tell me what he said on your way back?"Bob agreed and continued on his journey.

He came across a farmer who was planting seeds. The farmer asked him where he was going. "I am on my way to the land of the lucks to meet my luck and speak to him about why my life is so miserable," Bob said."Will you do me a favor?" the farmer asked. "I have been planting and watering my plants for ages, but nothing is growing. Will you ask my luck why I have been faced with such bad fortune and then tell me what he said on your way back?"Bob agreed and continued on his journey.

He came across a pond with a fish in it that appeared to be stuck with half her body in the water and her head outside of the water. When he told her where he was going, she replied, "Will you do me a favor? I have been stuck like this for a while, and I am unable to dive back into the water. Will you ask my luck why I am so unfortunate and then tell me what he said on your way back?"Bob agreed and continued on his journey.

He entered a large nation, the people of which took him to the palace of their queen. When Bob told the queen where he was headed, she said, "Will you do me a favor? My subjects do not respect me. Will you ask my luck why this is so and then tell me what he said on your way back?"Bob agreed and continued on his journey.

When he finally reached the land of the lucks and met his luck, he asked him, "Why have you made my life so miserable?"Luck responded, "Here's what you need to do: you have three leaps coming your way [Leaps, as in opportunities]. If you find them or even one of them, you will become successful in your life."When Bob asked him about the lion, farmer, fish and queen, Luck said, "The lion will become strong if he eats the meat of a jackass. As for the farmer, his plants are not growing because there is treasure buried in his land. If he digs the treasure out, the land will become fertile. As for the fish, she has swallowed a magic ring that is causing her head to stick out of the water. If she can get it out of her body, she will be able to swim again. As for the queen, her subjects are not respecting her because she is not married. If she had a husband, they would respect her."

Bob began his journey back, stopping on his way to tell the queen, farmer, fish, and lion what Luck had said about them.When he told the queen that Luck said she must find a husband, she said to Bob, "Would you like to marry me and become the king of my kingdom?" But Bob said, "No, no, no, I must continue. I am too busy looking for my leaps."When he reached the fish and told her what Luck had said about her, she said to Bob, "Would you please squeeze me so I can get the magic ring out? You can keep the ring for yourself if you like." But Bob said, "No, no, no, I must continue. I am too busy looking for my leaps."When Bob reached the farmer and told him what Luck had said about him, the farmer said, "Would you like to help me dig out the treasure? We can split it equally between the two of us." But Bob said, "No, no, no, I must continue. I am too busy looking for my leaps."

Finally, Bob reached the lion and told him that Luck had said he must eat the meat of a jackass. The lion said, "You only just came across your three leaps and you brushed them aside! Who can be more like a jackass than you?!"And so the lion ate Bob."THE END :)

Credit to Noma for the story :)
Excuse the language
I just got such a kick out of that story, and it had a good lesson too.

Finalssss :'(

Aiyya. *Fobby way of saying "Oh gosh..." or "Ugh"*

I have midterms next week, and I am completely unprepared as of yet. So much studying to do! But I've decided to give myself a break today, and then work tirelessly *or as tirelessly as I can manage* for the rest of the week :] Hence, here I am, typing this out.

I think I'll stop wasting the only free time I'll have for the next week, and go watch a movie... "The Bucket List" sounds good. I think I'll watch that.

So, farewell my faithful readers. I probably won't see you again until after finals, when I'll finally emerge from the mounds of textbooks I'm sure to be buried under for the next week ;]

Apparently there was an earthquake at 8:06 p.m. tonight, but I didn't feel it.
Or maybe I did, but I was on the phone so I didn't notice.
As many people have remarked, I don't have the most astute observational skills.
o.O

An Old Blogpost Brought to Life

I wrote this at the beginning of last summer, and I liked the concept. I just wanted to have a copy of it on this blog :)



(27 Jun 2008 09:07 am)
Ramblings on a lazy summer day...

I’m here in Philly for my cousin’s graduation party and a wedding, but it’s pretty slow right now because nobody else has arrived yet. My days are spent browsing online, watching WAY too many chick flicks, randomly heading out with my cousins, and lying on the couch just daydreaming, which gives me just a little too much time to let my thoughts wander.
So yesterday, during one of my frequent on-the-couch-daydreaming sessions, the weirdest thought occurred to me: How do we know that we all see colors the same way? What if what I see as green is what you see as blue, and what I see as blue is what you see as green. (Did that make any sense at all?) I mean, "blue" and "green" are just words we use to indicate to others what color we mean. From an early age, we’re taught to recognize the colors we see using given terms, but there’s no guarantee that we all see the same colors, is there? Even if we all look at this text and identify it as black, that doesn’t necessarily mean that we’re seeing the same thing. It’s just what each of us has been trained to recognize as black.
Okay, I think I’m even confusing myself now, so I’ll stop…
Until next time :]


Haha, my writing style seems to have changed dramatically since summer... although I kind of like the way it used to be.
Definitely have to get back to that...

New Year's Resolution

So...

Sometimes, my parents make me really angry.
Like, REALLY mad.
Blood boiling, fist making, jaw clenching mad.

And then I say stuff that I later regret.

Why can't I just keep my mouth shut!?
It's my own fault more than half the time.
I ignore doing various easy tasks that they've reminded me about like, 50 times. I know it's bound to make them mad, and bring their wrath down on myself.
If I would just do the little things that they ask...

But I don't.

Sometimes, they're irritable, and nitpick insignificant things.
I do that quite often too, and I realize how much people have to put up with from me sometimes.
If I could just stand there and take it like they all do for me; keep my head down and weather the storm...

But I can't.


Sometimes, I feel like defiance is an extra appendage.
It sticks out of the center of my torso; an inconvenience.
It's a limb I can't control, and one that takes control in a moment of weakness.

Honestly.
I realize that sometimes, I do things just because I know it'll make my mom mad.
Not all the time.
But often enough.

Which brings me to my New Year's Resolution:

Every time I get into a confrontation with my mom, dad, or anybody else for that matter, I will try to see their side, count to 5, and answer in a calm, respectful voice.

I feel like that's gonna be hard enough, so I'll leave that as my only one for now.

Wish me luck!
:)

Another personality quiz :D

You Are Emotional

You are dependable, popular, and observant.Deep and thoughtful, you are prone to moodiness.In fact, your emotions tend to influence everything you do.You are unique, creative, and expressive.You don't mind waving your freak flag every once and a while.And lucky for you, most people find your weird ways charming!

Toe-socks

Toe-socks are unbelievably warm.

*wiggles toes*

Like heaven for your toesies :D

Musings on a rainy day :]

Sometimes I wonder,
What if...
I'm looking through a window
forever streaked by rain
changing the way I see things
and I don't even know it?


But then I realize,
everyone has their own window
streaked by raindrops
in a unique pattern.

It's what makes us
different.
It's what makes our perceptions
our own.

Thank God for the rain.

Ramblings about my day...

So, seeing as I never casually rant about my day, I've decided that I will today :)
Here goes...

Well... I had an ortho appointment at 9, and my parents decided I might as well not go to school before it, so I got to wake up at 7-ish this morning, as opposed to my usual 6 a.m., which was good. And then, after everyone else had left for school, work, what have you, I had some me-time. I made myself some mini frozen waffles, pulled on fuzzy toe-socks, grabbed a fleece blanket, and sat on the couch to watch 2 amazing episodes of House (which is like, my absolute favorite show).
Then, around 8:15-ish, I left my warm nest on the couch, changed into uber-toasty clothes, and watched yet some more House while waiting for my dad to come from work and pick me up so as to take me to the orthodontist.
So, my dear ol' dad finally got home, and we made our way through the rain and cold over to Dr. Writer's office. On the way, I read some more of "The Time Traveler's Wife" *such an addicting book!! I'll probably go read some more when I'm done with this* and had a fun conversation with my dad about philosophy *that's kind of our thing*.
Fast-forward through the orthodontist's office... nothing of importance there.
So after that, I got dropped off at school (~11-ish) and headed off to 4th period Alg2/Trig, where I was finally enlightened as to the concept of exponential decay by Mr. Cochrane :D
Lunch... nothing super special. Hira bought me a cookie, which was nice of her, and I got compliments on my coat, which made me happy :D And then we just hung out w/our group of friends like we do every day.
Then after lunch, I went to 5th period EnglishH2 w/Mr. Penhall, who is my absolute favorite teacher. We had a test on "A Tale of Two Cities" *actually a pretty good book...* And then I accidentally referred to Mr. Penhall as Mr. Cochrane *I'm always switching their names by accident :P* and that got him started on a long, entertaining story about how he's known Mr. Cochrane for 40 years (WOW. That's like, since the time my dad was born)
And then I went to Japanese, which was okay-ishly fun, as always. Perry and Kevin are too hilarious :P and Andy, as always, was insulting me through the whole period, trying to get a reaction out of me. But I got my classwork done! :D
And then after school, I walked w/Hira and Myra to the parking lot, where we stood for 5 minutes freezing our faces off, until we found out Hira's mom was going to be late picking us up today. So we wandered back to the warmth of the library, and defrosted our fingers. (I'm not even kidding... my fingers started out freezing, and after a certain point I couldn't feel them anymore. It was nuts...) But the happiness was short-lived, because 5 minutes later, we found out that Hira's mom was on her way, so we ventured into the freezing rain and wind, and high-tailed it back to the parking lot, where we spent another 5, icy minutes waiting for our ride. And then we get a call from Myra's mom, saying she's picking us up in front of the library, so we had to walk back from whence we came for the 2nd time :P
But we were finally in the nice, warm car :]
And then... I got home, made myself grilled cheese (I'd forgotten to make myself lunch, so I was ravenous after not eating the whole day), and sat down to watch CNN's "Planet in Peril" *Totally amazing...*
And then I took a nap for like, 2 hrs. I woke up feeling refreshed, so I sat down to do HW.
When I was done with that... I got some green tea from my little brother *what a sweetie<3*, put on a sweatshirt and fuzzy slippers cause I was cold, and sat down for my nightly AIM sessions with various friends :]
And now, here I am.

All in all, it was an ok day :D
Gnite everyone!

<3 nida

Blahhh.

I have to do hw.
Cause it's Sunday. And I haven't started yet.
UGH.

But I guess I will now.

What if?

I tell them my dreams. Lay out my aspirations.

"There's no way you'll be able to do that," they scoff.
"Be realistic," they say.

But I'll show them.
I'll prove them wrong.
"Just watch me," I think to myself.


And one day, I'll go back to them.
I'll shove it in their faces.
I did what they said I couldn't.
I accomplished what they said was impossible.
I will.
And they'll be forced to eat their words.
To admit they were wrong.
To admit I was able.













But what if I don't?
What if they're right?

Tick Tock

Tick.

One second passed.

Tock.

Another second gone.

Leaving change in its wake.

Constant change.

Tick.

Always.

Tock.

No moment identical to the last.

Continuing to eternity.





Tick.

Tock.

Time

The entire family, gathered in the family room.
Mom, Dad, and I with mugs of hot coffee.
Anam and Zain with chocolate milk and bendy straws.
Watching The Lion King.
Laughing.
Smiling.
Content.

I want to freeze this moment.
This scene out of a holiday-movie ending.

But I can't.
It's already gone.

Time moves on.
Leaving each second different from the last.
Leaving me feeling helpless.

So.
Helpless.

I'm tempted to go veg...

Apparently, they sell this @ In N Out.

So Grotesque...

I'm bored...

and nobody's been blogging.
So I have nothing to read.
:[

Stupid Gromit. Do some blogging!!

Sleeping away the day? Hah. I wish.

Here's a quote about sleep:

A good laugh and a long sleep are the best cures in the doctor's book. ~Irish Proverb

Sleep? What is this sleep you speak of? I know of it not.



And here's another:

The bed is a bundle of paradoxes: we go to it with reluctance, yet we quit it with regret; we make up our minds every night to leave it early, but we make up our bodies every morning to keep it late. ~Charles Caleb Colton

How true...



I'm kind of bitter.
It's modified day. Yes, that blissful day where non-0 period students get to sleep an extra hour in the morning.
But where am I? I'm sitting here in 0, typing this to keep myself from falling asleep on the keyboard.
I think it's working... just a bit. Maybe. A tad. Slightly.

I.
Want.
To.
Sleep.

zZzZz... it's become a distant dream.

deception

looking up at the sky.
the stars
littering the
heavens.



my thoughts:

so far away.
pretty lights
twinkling away.
sparkling.
the glitter
of the galaxies.

when you get closer.
big, burning
orbs of fury.
inviting things in
with their shine.
and then?
they burn.

so,
in a nutshell.
stars.
inviting
from a distance.
dangerous
up close.

hmm.
comparable
to some
people.




there was really no point to this poem... i just felt kinda bored :P